Foggy Walks

I never used to care about foggy days. But I have discovered an enormous overflow of joy and excitement and wonder within me whenever it is really foggy outside. 

I immediately want to go for a walk in it.

So that is what I did yesterday evening.

What a Day for a Daydream ~

Solitude and Sigur Rós combined make me want to cry. Their music centers me in a way that only some things can.

I'm feeling so centered right now. Solitude is one component of who I am that is so freeing for me. It is space for me to gather myself while at the same time unleashing everything that is contained within the corners of my soul. My journal and thick binder packed full with an assortment of thoughts, experiences and feelings in the form of pen on paper is where I go to release. The head-space that I'm in when I am writing, drawing, painting or simply just allowing my inner-essence to flow is a kind of secret sanctuary. Nobody knows this place but myself. I can go to this hidden space and be free of judgement.
I have years and years worth of chronicled joy, pain and more pain, personal experiences, doubts, anxieties and excitement all concealed within this space. It is literally like a plunge pool, where my plethora of thoughts spill like a waterfall.
And when I'm in this space I am lounged out on my floor, centered and content, often feeling overwhelmed with abundance and love. Just the simple sensation of mentally releasing while at the same time being able to salvage some really interesting concepts or unintentional poetry.
Although it is a space of total confinement, it's at the same time a limitless space of introspection, mind-exploration and boundless musings.

The perfect setting for a free spirit.

Miscellaneous Thoughts

Myself and Lizzy - drunk, no?

No particular reason for this chosen picture. Just a good night a couple months ago with my friends. They are done school so very soon and we shall be reunited. Except Lizzy, like me, isn't currently at school. So that is always awesome.

Lizzy and I always have the most strange yet hilarious encounters when we go out together. Ending up in the most odd of places, talking to strange folks.

There are very few people in my life who understand me. She is one of those few.

My two favourite songs right now are Forever Young by Rod Stewart and Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For by U2.

Affirmation #39:
I release the idea that dark energies are harming me or holding me back, ill-wishers putting spells on me, or psychically attacking me in some way or another. I recognize this thought form as fear. I let go of these things as illusions that they are. They are only real and have the power to effect me if I believe in them. No harm and no fear.

Cloudbursts & Chiropractors

It's thundering today! I haven't heard thunder is so many months, and it sounds so magnificent. I've missed thunderstorms actually, although when I was a lot younger I used to be absolutely terrified. They're really neat though and fascinating and powerful and awe-inspiring. Especially at nighttime when all you can see is really bright flashes illuminating your room. And when you're able to watch the storm and catch some great views of the fork-type strikes that are brighter than anything. Counting the seconds to see how far away it is ;) These cloudbursts that are produced in the sky are simply amazing.

Wow the thunder literally right now is rattling my house.

Yesterday I went to the Total Health Show in downtown Toronto with my friend. It was really really cool, I was all giddy when we first got there because every direction I looked I just wanted to dive into. Hundreds of amazing holistic health and alternative medicine stuff; organic foods, funky kitchen tools, EMF protection thinga-ma-bobs, energy healing and massage dudes, spiritual speakers, books galore! The list goes on actually. There was a booth selling coconuts that they drill a hole into and you drink out of. We got a whole bunch of samples of all kinds of hyped up super nutrition drinks. A lot of that sort of stuff I really don't buy in to or care to spend my time on. You know those people who are frantically trying to sell you their amazing product? We got a sample of wheatgrass juice though! I've wanted to try it for so long and it... definitely needed to be swallowed down like you'd shoot tequila. I want to juice wheatgrass though because I know it is super great and you'd get used to its potent flavour. Oh my school had a booth!! Was really nice to see that! For lunch I had a plate of all organic lentil, quinoa, broccoli, carrot and fresh parsley salad with apple cider vinaigrette. There was just so many cool things there!

One of the main things that happened, though, was a free analysis I got from a chiropractor. They tested my posture and balance and then rolled this thing up the back of my neck. After the image popped up of the nerves or whatever from my neck the first question he asked me was, "Were you in a car accident recently?".
Nope. "Haven't experienced any whiplash?" Nope.


Oh shit.
Yes I have actually! I was immediately jostled with intense concern about what happened to me a year ago:

I was hanging out with my brother and I went to make some oatmeal. I was standing by the stove stirring and I quite suddenly didn't want to eat it anymore. I felt really sick. I sat down on a chair by the kitchen table, except I sat down with the back of the chair beside me as opposed to behind me (like you'd usually sit on a chair). My brother came into the kitchen and I said, "I think I'm going to faint". He looked confused. That is all I remember.
Unfortunately, due to my position on the chair with nothing to support my back, I had fallen completely backwards and smacked my head on the ceramic floor below. Then I had a seizure. I woke up with my brother holding me up, "Holy shit are you ok? Are you ok?"
I can actually recall some very strange vivid images from when that happened.
I sat up and he said I was so happy and I kept apologizing and saying I was ok. I had absolutely no idea what had just happened. He got me to lay down on the couch. All I could hear was the loudest ringing in my ears.

My brother was literally traumatized, he still tells me to this day just how loud the hit was and how he wishes he had been able to catch me in time. I remember lying down on the couch watching him pace back in forth in terror as I asked, "Can you hear that? What is that sound?" Turns out concussions give you tinnitus.

Anyways, I, very distraught, told the chiropractor this and he said that is definitely why my readings were so high and, well, it's certainly not a good thing. He told me to get some x-rays done on my spine and neck. Needless to say, I'm pretty concerned now. After the event happened I went to the hospital the next day and the doctor said I was ok, no neurological damage or anything and it was simply left at that. I have pretty much not worried too much about it. I've been perfectly fine, no pain or anything (except super stiffness and tooth pain for about 2 weeks after it happened).

So that is that. I suppose I should make an appointment to get a check up though. :(

Fresh Fruit & Veg Salad! Yummmmo!

This is a chopped fruit and veg salad I made last night, thought I'd share! I got the recipe from Raw Radiant Health (on Youtube) except she used jicama - a root vegetable that I didn't have.

It was so very tasty! :

• 1/2 red onion
• 1/2 yellow bell pepper
• 1/2 pear (in replacement of the jicama)
• 1/4 cucumber
• juice of 1/2 a lemon (or lime)
• Himalayan salt (or whichever salt you have) & pepper
• Drizzle of olive oil

Dice up ingredients, add oil and juice of lemon and mix around in bowl. Add your salt and pepper. You can certainly add in any other ingredients you like - tomatoe would be splendid.

Let us analyze the nutritional value of these delightful foods shall we? Red onions and cucumbers are a lovely source of vitamin C and fibre, bell peppers and lemons are high in antioxidants and in turn destroy free radicals! Yay! As well pears are a good source of copper which also protect the body from free radical damage. Isn't food just awesome?

Salutations, April

~Budding flower on a branch

It is the first day of April. April reminds me of blue and gray and rain. This morning was splendid and was a picture perfect example of an April morning. Dewey, foggy and misty. Cloudy and mildly cool.

Like every new month, I am eager and excited. I love changing my calendar and I love feeling the newness. I wonder what April will bring me? =)