incomprehensibly enormous infinity of nothingness

Looking out my window

So the other night my mind transcended into a new dimension as I was sitting on the edge of my bed, gazing out my window up to the sky, past the trees, at a big puff of condensation passing by overhead.

I was originally singing at the top of my lungs and swaying along to Elton John and Alanis Morissette until I found myself simply drifting away. I sat and stared for quite some time. Contemplated as I watched the leaves on the trees blow swiftly. And then I went outside and stood on my driveway looking very peculiarly up at the dusty blueness of sky and wispy wafts of white wind. I do believe a man saw me and I can imagine he was curious about what I was staring at so intently.

An airplane flew through the clouds and then I thought,

"What are we, what is this? Where are we? What the hell is life?" Typical ponderings.

There I was. On my driveway. Or not at all, in fact. In the cosmos I floated along, quite simply seeing beyond this thing we call "sky" and into the incomprehensibly enormous infinity of nothingness, for that is all everything seems to be, is nothing.

interplanetary spaceflight

Julia and I ;-)

A trip to outer space was had last night with me and three of my friends. If you need an idea of what it's like to blast off, take a listen to Libella Swing, preferably as loud as possible. Oh yeah. Under the right circumstances, you'll be on another planet in no time.

My friend Lizzy was saying how when she backpacked in Spain they played music like that at the clubs over there and it's one million times more intense. I definitely need to go to Spain. Austrian DJ swing/house music is sexy as hell.

Cat~Love and an Affirmation

Tara and I, October 2010

Found some cute photos of me and my favourite cat, Tara. I miss her very much. We were buddies man. Best friends. She followed me everywhere. Whenever I'd go to my dad's house she would sit on me like that and totally snuggle.

Affirmation #3:
I am eternal consciousness living inside a lucid dream called life.
I am a lucid dreamer, for I am awake.
I live a lucid life.

moon shine

~the moon tonight

moonshine
illuminating the periwinkle skies
as the dusk rolls in
painting a picture
for my eyes,
bright pearl in celestial bliss
I could sit and stare
daydreams for company.

Rain Dance

It is absolutely pouring outside. My brother and I ran outside immediately and started running around. I think the last time I ever danced in the rain and thoroughly allowed myself to soak in it was like six years ago. Damn it feels good! Our street was like a river and the main street just off our street was literally like foot-deep rapids. Probably this is serious and some flooding occurred. But it was fun nonetheless.

It has been quite rainy these days but I revel in it. It is especially enchanting when you wake up to the sound of heavy rain and it is particularly cleansing to even just sit by a window and watch the raindrops hit the trees and form a magical mistiness that truly makes everything look like a dream.

mystical

~Underneath a magical umbrella tree in my front yard

I would describe today as mystical because it is rainy and cloudy and cool. These are my favourite days. I simply love the dampness and the drops and the sensing that thirsty things are being satiated. Rainy days seem quieter and slower and fuller and I like it. I love being rained on it feels like nothing else and it bestows something though I don't know what it is.

Today's quote, as recited by my mother from a newspaper:
We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be.

in my world

Lounging about my room
listening to Elton John
like last night as I lay on my bed
disloyal lamp left me singing in the darkness
more free than before
and Nick Drake is a new favourite,
oh how I love acoustic guitar and soul-soaked voices

August & Dragonflies

~Dragonfly on a fence in my backyard

Happy August everybody. I have said before how I love new months. Not only 'cause I like changing my calendar, but I like awaiting what will transpire for that month. Although any day is no different than the next, the Earth is only spinning its cycle and the sun is always present and space is always around us, it's still nice to think about what will come to be. August reminds me of the colour dark blue.

This large dragonfly caught my eye out on my fence in my backyard the other day and I just had to snap a picture of it. When I was like 13 I remember I wanted a dragonfly tattoo on my foot though now I don't plan on getting any tattoos. That's my one-with-nature mindset right there for ya. I think they're a very pretty insect though if I do say so myself. The wings in particular.

You can click here if you'd like for a video I posted today on how to cultivate self-love :)